The Court of Solomon was created two years ago. And it required everything else to be built to make it work. A marriage was delayed because the technology did not exist, and the blood was still healing me from a lifetime of traumas.
Two years later, after a long winding path that made no sense, I found myself in Florida. And for two months, nothing made sense. After years in recruiting I could not find a job, my savings were dwindled to nothing. There were times where I didn’t know if I could keep the roof on my head. And then from nowhere God landed four jobs on the same day. I took the one I felt best suited me.
Being led by my feelings and a woman on TikTok I sat at that job and felt a tugging from the Lord. I had trusted him to carry me through. That all things were in his will, but that now I was coming back into the world. And he gave me a warning, to be in the world and not of the world.
So there at work I began to pray. That Lord it doesn’t matter what happens to me, you brought me to Florida to do your work. Beginning a ministry, yet I had failed to do my works. I had forgotten that no works I could ever do would be enough to earn the unmerited love of God, and my eyes had fallen to worldly things trying to survive and create a home for my future family.
It was in that moment the Lord gave me four passages in the Bible. Luke Chapter 16, Jeremiah 33:3, John 9:14 and James 3:14. He had finally revealed my ministry, without showing me the full thing. Just one step after another. So I followed, could see what was being built, but had no idea how the shape would enter the world.
You see I was to take the tools of this world and be a good and faithful steward over them, a just and faithful servant, and that all the things in my past — the struggles that disqualified me according to the world’s standards — God had allowed because they were the fires that refined me so that his manifest glory would shine through my works as his hands in my life, not my own. And that he was exalted through my rooted faith so he would shine through. And though I had been dead in the past mentally, spiritually and physically I was to come alive and blossom again.
Because I hadn’t just died more times than I could count, but December 25, 2014 I was in a head-on collision with a semi. And as I sat in the void, Satan in the guise of my grandmother tried deceiving me into giving up my spirit. When I called out to Abba the angel Michael came to banish him and I found myself standing in Hell, where I saw the tortures people put themselves through because of their separation from the love of God, and then when I called to my Abba again I was transported to heaven. Where I walked with Jesus, and he asked me if I would come back and be his witness. The witness to all the nations of the earth.
It didn’t make sense to me then how I of all people could witness to the four corners of the earth. But he showed me all I would have to suffer and go through. To experience the agony of failing health, the weaponization of institutions and the twisting of the systems of incarceration, so that I could reach people at their level. And then I would be the witness who had come back from Hell that people chose when they didn’t endure until the end. I would be the man who came back from the dead to preach: Jesus is alive and salvation comes through faith.
Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know. And that I had done my entire life. And what had started as me seeking to know God deeper had become a lifelong descent into rabbit trails and trying to learn what I shouldn’t, because it became my pride. Until God revealed the mysteries of his mind so I could create the very things running a completely open system for anyone to discern the mind of God through the noise of this world.
And when I have finished the work that the Lord has made me, I would find rest from all the pain, the struggles, and the trials he had given me, and find his peace and rest as I began simply waiting on him and doing what waiters do, and serve.
But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. So I will spend my life being open and accountable to the people that I serve in my witness, so that they can discern the evils of my heart, as I do not deny that I am foremost of sinners. Because to whom much is given, much is expected. For the good that I wish to do, I do not do. But I practice the very evil I wish not to do.
The messenger is not the testimony. The tool is not the platform.
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